3-CARD READING: HONOR YOURSELF, FIRST & FOREMOST

Hiiiiii babes!  This three-card reading includes:

1. What's happening right now: Four of Feathers
2. What's bubbling beneath the surface: Ten of Bottles
3. What can you do to stay in the flow:  Five of Feathers 

I hope it brings clarity and comfort if there's chaos swirling inside of you and / or your life.  

For more info about what's happening this month, I have a Monthy Love Letter, a mini card reading, that taps into a strong theme for the month.

And it's ok if you don't feel connected to this message / reading, but it might help you understand where your friends, family, community, etc., are coming from. 😋

​TRANSCRIPTION:

Hello, everybody. It's me, Violet. If you don't know me, I read tarot and I tell stories, and that's kind of what I love to do.

And today I'm doing a three-card reading.  

The first card will be what's happening right now.  The second one will be what's kind of bubbling below the surface, and the third one will be how do we get through this moment to keep moving forward in a direction that feels good and supportive for you?  

So the first card that comes up is the Four of Feathers.  It's upside down.  I read upside down cards as like an exclamation mark.  

So right now is a time for boundaries. Boundaries.  People have different relationships to boundaries.  Boundaries can be difficult.  Boundaries can be nourishing.  I try to remind myself that like boundaries are a way for me to express love for the people that I care about.  I want to honor their safety and their desires.  Right.  

So *hiccup* excuse me.  What we see here is *hiccup* excuse me.  I imagine that it's the Tower.  So, a Tower moment has happened.  

Things have fallen away.  Things that might have been really difficult for you to understand.  Things that you didn't want to have happened, but it did.  
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Often from an outside source, it could have been just like a real quick flash, which is lightning that brings down the Tower.  It could have been a storm building that had the lightning that then brought it down.  

So right now, what I really love about this card are these feathers, and feathers are about communication.  And so as you communicate and express your boundaries, you're essentially closing off this portal, so anything that you left in the past can stay there, as long as you're practicing your boundaries.  

The most important person that we're honest with is ourselves.  So if we say I'm not going to talk to this person anymore, but then we do, nobody knows except for me.  You know, and that's the person that you're not honoring.  

It could be any number of things.  That's just the one that came to my mind.  So be thinking about your boundaries and how they could support your life and actually nourish you.  

So what's bubbling below the surface is the Ten of Bottles.
 
I really love the Ten of Bottles because here we see all of these friends.  We see an anchor.  This anchor means that you have friends, allies, where you can drop your anchor, meaning that you do feel safe, that you do feel community with, that you do feel connected with, and it expands beyond humans.  

So yes, we have friends, we have people, we have mentors, family, and we have our ancestors.  We have our guides.  We have tree spirits.  We have elementals.  We have fairies.  We have angels.  We have so many more sources of support that we're just not tapping into.

One way that I really learned that was this past winter.  I had so much grief that I would go for walks, and I would just almost shower the world outside with my grief.  

I would give it to the trees, and I would sometimes touch the trees.  And with each exhale, when I was crying or sobbing or exasperated or confused, angry.  I would be touching the tree and knowing that with each exhale, that this tree was loving my carbon dioxide.  That this tree was able to synthesize and transform my grief into something useful and nourishing, like oxygen. I need that shit.  

So there are so many different ways, and one that just came to mind was like your future ancestral self, like is a very, very, very helpful person, being, expression of the femoverse that can totally lead you to the next phase, which is where they live.

And the third card, which is “how do we move through this,” is the Five of Feathers.  So the Five of Feathers shows this person who is first sewing feathers onto their arm, and now is taking those feathers off.  So the feathers represent a self that doesn't actually exist.  It’s actually is very connected to the Tower.  

So part of how and why the Tower came down is because you were not being authentic to yourself.  

You were trying to become somebody different, you didn't trust who you were to be good enough.

There is no foundation for a life that honors you in those practices, and they are practices. You know, like yes, they're habits, but like they're deeper than habits.  They’re, they're based on belief systems of "I have to change myself," "I have to change everything about myself," and then they realize that that's actually not going to serve them at all, and they start taking the feathers off. 

So with this card, it reminds me a lot of a lesson, an epiphany that I had last week, where I was feeling really sad about a thing that happened, and I realized that I have this deep, pervasive belief that when I choose myself, my world falls apart.  

And I was reflecting on how often this pattern has occurred in my life, and as I was kind of, like, playing with it, and examining this belief, and remembering things, I realized that when I chose myself in these relationships, and they fell apart, it's because the foundation of that relationship was built around this other person, and, so, when I was in that relationship and catering, centering, placing more importance and value on that other person, the relationship was great. 

It was wonderful. It was harmonious.  It met the needs that I had. 
And then when it wasn't working, and I wanted to center myself and make choices for me, it fell apart.  And that's because the foundation wasn't based on me and my needs and my desires and what I was creating. 

It was based on somebody else’s, or the idea that I had about what they wanted or needed or desired. So it makes perfect sense that the antithesis for choosing another person versus choosing myself would cause foundation to crumble.

I would guess that that's probably the Tower that fell down. And this card is very much about seeing yourself for who you are, not being afraid, letting the process be ugly, letting it be messy, letting the grief, you know, like, I'm sure there's going to be some blood in this scenario, which feels like it could be purifying. 

It could be nourishing, getting the things out that aren't yours, and there might be a period where you don't know who you are or where you want to go, but that's good because they are trying to figure out what do you want, "what do I really want?"

And if there's a long history of suppressing that and of putting other people first, it's gonna take some time to realize and to connect again with what you want. So don't be deterred by it. Know that the things that happened in the past, you know, this Tower that's fallen, boundaries are going to be your friend. 

Maybe it's a boundary for, like, after such and such time, it's just for me. I'm going to do things that I want twice a week.  I would say, you know, every day, every day do something that you like, something that you want. And as you're doing this, don't forget that you have this whole vibrant community that just loves you and supports you and wants nothing more than for you to reach out and let them help you carry this because it's gonna be big. 

It's gonna be connected to family stuff. It's gonna be connected to deep beliefs. It's gonna be connected to, I would say, everything. 

This is going to be an overhaul. You prioritizing yourself. You building the life that you want with you at the center. It's gonna change a lot, and it's gonna change it in the best possible way. 

So that is your reading today, and if you would like your own personal reading, I would love to read your cards. I would love to sit with you, and talk with you, and listen, and be your witness, and help you connect with your own wisdom, with your own, your own healing. 

So, if you want to do that, I have a website www.highmoonfemme.com. You can find me on Patreon, Instagram, highmoonfemme, and all those things. So, thank you for listening. Thank you for joining me, and I hope to enter your sphere again soon.

​Bye.