Week of Falling Hard for Yourself: June 24-30

CW:  I'm writing / processing about mental health stuff, & mentioning DBT,
group therapy, & 12-step meetings without details.  If you don't want to expose yourself to these topics, feel free to drop below to the tarot reading part.  
​Thanks for taking care of yourself as much as you can!  xo

Deer Magic Heart,
This offering is three days late, I've got salt from fresh tears drying up on my neck, & I'm still plugging along, knowing & hoping that as long as I'm diligent, kind, & open, shit will continue working out.  

I've strayed from attending my 12-step meetings this week, but I did complete phase one on my DBT group therapy.  I'm crying & sleeping & eating.  I figured out that I spent most of last week in a PTSD haze where basically my brain didn't work the way I'm used to.  It's like I'm a little calculator that adds random numbers into the equations I'm being programmed with & I don't even know it.  It's like if I push buttons for 1+1, & I'm assuming whatever number comes out with be correct, & that it'll be 2...but then it doesn't, & I don't even know it!  I'm getting all different kinds of answers, anything from a subtle 1.8 to a not so subtle 20.  It took me a whole fucking week to figure this out, that something wasn't right with me.  & I only came to this conclusion after days of weird shit & not so random discrepancies   Sometimes being crazy really sucks & feels scary.

​Keeping myself grounded is a full-time endeavor, especially when I'm coming back from an intense PTSD haze.  I'm working hard to remember all the things I can be grateful for when I feel like shit, not to shame myself into feeling better or anything like that, but to highlight how powerful my love is.  I've loved myself back to life again & again.  I've loved myself so much that I've created a life with people who love me, with clients who I can be honest with & who feel safe being honest with me, a life where my rent gets paid & home is a real fucking place where I'm really fucking safe.  My willingness to breathe through heart crushing grief has paved the way for me to continue believing I still deserve love & care & consideration, no matter what happens to me.  

These are the powers that I am drawing upon now as I continually face the facts about what is happening with my kiddo.  I am so tender, heart broken, confused & overwhelmed, but I am not alone, & I trust that we will learn from this, too.

I'm too tired to proof read everything over & over like I usually do, so my apologies if any of this is unclear or confusing.  Writing a weekly tarot offering has always been a place where I document the trials & blessings in my life, & I intend to continue this tradition.  This is me, this is my heart, my blood, my pieces.  Thank you for witnessing.  May the Femmeiverse continue blessing us all with love, abundance, hope, & rest.

Love,
Dacia

P.S.
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SPIRIT:
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theme of the week.
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Woohoo the tower! The Tower’s my friend, bringing blessings and good tidings as long as we pay attention & are willing to let shit go. Cuz the Tower’s doing us a favor!  It's letting us know we can’t continue on the path we’re on, carrying overdue shit, so rather than making a nuisance of itself, its gonna tap out. Take your cue from the Tower & fall hard for yourself.  Do everything in your power for your #1 crush to thrive, even when it scares the shit outta you!

EARTH:
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boundaries, rituals, & reciprocity.
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Apprentice of bottles: You’re being prepared for a journey or destination that you're not being explicitly told about.  The femmiverse is keeping that a secret cuz you probably would say some shit like, “Oh, I don't deserve it,” etc. She isn’t asking for your opinion, she's just gonna give it to you little by little. ​

AIR:
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thoughts, beliefs, & perceptions.
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TWO of BOTTLES, it's that feeling of falling in love, where it feels like there's so much possibility & excitement & hope!  It's about wanting to offer your vulnerability & trust, about having hearts for eyes for your life, & about being willing to receive love. Now is the time to open up cuz the Femmiverse can give it to you & you deserve it, but if you don't let it in, its not gonna be able to do its thing.

FIRE:
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purification, transformation, & power.
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FIVE of BOTTLES is about practicing the boundaries you’ve been learning, implementing them knowing that people might flat out resist them.  You might find out you’ve been giving more than you should've been, & certain characters have grown accustomed to that. When you hold a standard of making people earn what you give them, you invite others to be in relationship with you in ways that honor reciprocity.  Plus, it’ll probs get rid of those that wanna freeload off of your magic. They will show themselves the door one way or another.

WATER:
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feelings, receptivity, nourishment.
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Artist of feathers. Allow your heart to do what it does best. Bottom for it unabashedly. Your heart wants to show you grand gestures of love, connection, diving headfirst into intimacy, making yourself happy, feeling connected to your body, music, food--all the things that make you happy. Stop telling telling yourself, “Oh I can have this later...” why wait??? Don't gamble with it, hoping it doesn’t spoil before you’ve done enough work to “earn” treats your heart & the Femmeiverse have so generously brought you.  It might feel too indulgent but let yourself have that shit. Now.

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CONNECT WITH YOUR ANCESTORS!
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 Dacia has been reading tarot for over 10 years & has developed a gentle approach that allows even the most challenging inquiries to come through with an ease & grace.  To experience the healing, clarity, & comfort you deserve, book a reading today!

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