Deer Magic Heart,
This offering is three days late, I've got salt from fresh tears drying up on my neck, & I'm still plugging along, knowing & hoping that as long as I'm diligent, kind, & open, shit will continue working out.  

I've strayed from attending my 12-step meetings this week, but I did complete phase one on my DBT group therapy.  I'm crying & sleeping & eating.  I figured out that I spent most of last week in a PTSD haze where basically my brain didn't work the way I'm used to.  It's like I'm a little calculator that adds random numbers into the equations I'm being programmed with & I don't even know it.  It's like if I push buttons for 1+1, & I'm assuming whatever number comes out with be correct, & that it'll be 2...but then it doesn't, & I don't even know it!  I'm getting all different kinds of answers, anything from a subtle 1.8 to a not so subtle 20.  It took me a whole fucking week to figure this out, that something wasn't right with me.  & I only came to this conclusion after days of weird shit & not so random discrepancies   Sometimes being crazy really sucks & feels scary.

​Keeping myself grounded is a full-time endeavor, especially when I'm coming back from an intense PTSD haze.  I'm working hard to remember all the things I can be grateful for when I feel like shit, not to shame myself into feeling better or anything like that, but to highlight how powerful my love is.  I've loved myself back to life again & again.  I've loved myself so much that I've created a life with people who love me, with clients who I can be honest with & who feel safe being honest with me, a life where my rent gets paid & home is a real fucking place where I'm really fucking safe.  My willingness to breathe through heart crushing grief has paved the way for me to continue believing I still deserve love & care & consideration, no matter what happens to me.  

These are the powers that I am drawing upon now as I continually face the facts about what is happening with my kiddo.  I am so tender, heart broken, confused & overwhelmed, but I am not alone, & I trust that we will learn from this, too.

I'm too tired to proof read everything over & over like I usually do, so my apologies if any of this is unclear or confusing.  Writing a weekly tarot offering has always been a place where I document the trials & blessings in my life, & I intend to continue this tradition.  This is me, this is my heart, my blood, my pieces.  Thank you for witnessing.  May the Femmeiverse continue blessing us all with love, abundance, hope, & rest.

Love,
Dacia

P.S.
I'm gonna be in the Bay next week, & I'm booking in-person readings for July 5th-17th.  Get yours before they fill up!  Let's eat snacks, talk, & connect with your guides & ancestors to get your some healing, clarity, & confirmation about anything & everything!

Guess who’s here for another New Moon?  THE CODE!  I guess the Femmeiverse really wants you to ground & center in yourself again, & what better time than the New Moon?  I totes had a feeling that THE CODE might show up again, too!  This Gemini New Moon is a good time to nurture your creativity & communicate your heart’s desires.  Start writing; try a DIY project; learn a new recipe; trust your heart when it tells you to reach out to that friend you haven’t communicated with for a while, or play a favorite song on repeat while you travel back in time to reflect on how far you’ve come.  I also recommend revisiting any intentions you sent out into the Femmeiverse during last month’s Taurus New Moon so you can assess what’s come to fruition, what still needs support, & what you’ve changed your mind about.  Your heart is getting stronger & braver every day, & you’ll probably find that it wants to open quicker than what you think you’re ready for.  Trust it anyways.  Your heart always wants the best for you.  

This week you can expect to easily slip out of paradigms that have been blocking your clarity about an old situation.  It’ll seem so obvious once you recognize what it is.  Don’t utter any unkind words towards yourself about this.  Bask in the marvelous simplicity of your new awareness, grateful to shed this very old skin.  You're preparing to make a big move, which can be moving to a new residence, making a career move, or shifting focus in your emotional / psychological / spiritual life.  Although this move is not sudden, it is still challenging, mostly because you are acting on faith.  This card is about the ways your heart is connecting to Spirit & how you are changing as a result.  You have been gaining insight & clarity that is inspiring this move, & the conditions are lining up for you to trust that this is exactly what you’re supposed to do!

​Your guides & ancestors want you to understand that you're being held securely in their loving palms.  The image for the RECEPTION card reflects that you're the sweet body holding the power of creation in your body & spirit, & they want to support you in bring your ideas & energy out into the world.  You are incubating an idea, a creative project, a purpose.  You know it, I know it, & so does the Femmeiverse.  You are here to create something beautiful, deer one, something no one else in creation can ever replicate because it will be filtered through every feeling you’ve ever felt, every story you ever witnessed, every skill you’ve ever learned, & every experience you survived, thrived, fought, & loved your way through.  In all of time, there is only one you.  You are responsible for that living, breathing thing inside of you.  The RECEPTION card says that there is absolutely a place in this world for you & your creation.  All that’s left is for you to relax, believe what I am telling you, & gently open yourself up so you can share those gems you’ve been incubating.  By no means does any part of this process have to be perfect, you just gotta start.  

​Fighting for your life doesn’t have to involve fists or words that draw blood.  Fighting for your life can be releasing what is in your heart, letting it fly, trusting that it can.  APPRENTICE of FEATHERS tells me you’ve been sitting with your heart truths for a little while now & urges you to find a way to express it.  Yes, there are people you hold deer that will not be able to accept what you’re sharing, & yes, they might even leave because they are so uncomfortable--do it anyways!  Fuck 'em.  Don’t let their fear clip your wings.  

This week the Femmeiverse is bringing you the STAR.  She wants you to understand how much possibility resides in every iota of your being--YOU are the impossible made possible!  You are a miracle, you are a dream come true, you are loved every single day, every single moment, through every single breath!  Your guides & ancestors are pouring so much energy into you all the time, filling that heart of yours, pouring protective energy all over you so that you’re ok.  Your job is to surrender, trust, & believe you deserve this expression of unconditional love from the Femmeriverse & the Spirit realm cuz you're being prepped for some miraculous, outta this world, OMG shit.  Now is the time to make BIG PLANS & EVEN BIGGER WISHES!  There’s no limit, deer one, take advantage of this moment.  Let this truth knock the breath outta you, then let it fill your lungs with sweetness.   

​Don’t be afraid of making those BIG STAR CARD PLANS!  The Femmeiverse totally supports you--crunch the numbers, make a budget, make a plan, ask for help closing any gaps you can see right now, & then leave it be.  SIX of FEATHERS is about making your own wings to achieve a goal that you’ve never attempted before, to go somewhere & do a thing because you’re tired of telling yourself I can’t.  Your wings will take time, & throughout this process you will wrestle with faith & doubt, asking yourself: Do I have what it takes to make this happen?  The resources?  The perseverance?  The nerve to ask for what I want?  In these moments, remember the promise of the STAR card, & how much love & care you’ve exuded into your families, your communities, & the Femmeiverse, & that all that good shit will absolutely come back to you.  That’s reciprocity.  Don’t fuck with the balance by refusing to receive.  SIX of FEATHERS says that the people that love you, near & far, will totes come & support you in any way possible.  

​TEN of FEATHERS is showing up in the realm of AIR this week.  This is where the Femmeiverse talks to you through signs, songs, & inspired thought.   This card shows us how Icarus fell from the sky when his wax wings melted cuz he was too close to the Sun, & I can't help but wonder if he had a feeling that those wings weren't gonna do the job?  Did he ignore something crucial for the sake of haste or convenience?  Be careful right now, don’t make the same mistake.  It’s obvi by the TEN of FEATHERS showing up that you did fuck up somewhere along this path you're on, & that you chose to travel back in time (to this moment) to do this shit over.  Make sure you take this opportunity to consider options that might not currently be in the picture, & don't be afraid to be honest enough with yourself that your course & destination change.

FIVE of FEATHERS is here as a wakeup call.  Stop pretending like you don’t know what you want, & don’t lie about it either.  This card represents a person who wants to be free to fly where they want when they want, & they’re so desperate to appear as if they’ve got it figured out that they’re pulling feathers off a dead bird & sewing them into their own skin.  Don’t settle for the shell of the life you want, sweet one.  Choose the living, breathing, bleeding version.   Your guides & ancestors can help you grow wings for the life you want if you choose messy & alive, but first you gotta humble yourself enough to admit you don’t know what you’re doing, & secondly, refuse to take any shortcuts when it comes to quality.  If you need to start over, start over.  You’ve got time. 

Grieve some more.  I realize you might be tired of it, but if you stop now you’ll only create more work for yourself later on.  Old pain you thought you were “done” with has been haunting you because it's ready for a final purge that makes healing on a deeper level possible.  Don’t worry that you seem to be here again, you didn’t do anything wrong.  You are exactly where you need to be.  Once you stop fighting the story sitting inside of you & let it out, you will feel much better.  Talk to your grief.  Make it your friend.  The more you honor it, the quicker it’ll move through & out.  Witness your own pain to embrace the power that comes when you no longer turn away.  This process will reveal answers you’ve been seeking.