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ALWAYS WAXING & WANING

Weekly Tarot for 11/29-12/05: Transformation as Foundation

11/29/2015

 
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 What do the Keys Wanna Say?  A Little Heat is Good for You

This week I am still trying out formats for how I want weekly offerings to work.  This week I am drawing three cards to talk about the week, & will do a Tarot Tuesday for a draw your own card kinda thing.  Let's get to it.

Immediately I can recognize a relationship between the first two cards that indicate a significant change because they involve opening the heart with a hard earned key & opening up said heart because you know it's a treasure chest that houses something you are excited about.  Yes, the Femmeiverse knows about that.  & then there's a dramatic shift of daydream water energy to counter the intensity of heat, but still utilizing the powerful momentum.  

The Two of Keys & Ace of Keys are both cards from the Fire Suit & carry the power of slow burning fires with a life of their own. ​

Past: Two of Keys


I feel like Two of Keys is totally talking about that Full Moon we had last week.  Full Moons are a great time to intentionally release stuff because then it can become smaller along with the waning moon.  

​Whatever was happening for you, the purpose was to clear space for an opening.  It's almost as if you were just moving shit away from a door (which is your heart according to this card) you knew you had to open, no matter the mess or disarray.  & then you were in, through, on the other side.  Other side of what? you ask, let's keep going.
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Acceptance

Feels like a deep breath in or a holding of breath before diving in, turning that key. 

Present: Ace of Keys


I get the impression this maybe a bit more than you bargained for.   You needn't be afraid of getting burned, just follow the trail that the Ancestors are making just for you!  

​There might be a mini flare of sorts because of the build of pressure, & but it's only so the stuff at the bottom can surface to either leave or come back to you.  There are gonna be gifts you forgot you stored away, & memorabilia you know has to go, & even a map you made for yourself however long ago.  Fire is tempering you so you won't scare of your own power, your own heat, & or that of another.  Sit a spell.
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Release

Feels like the deep & shuddering exhale of not dying when you chose to surrender to the process.

Future: Seeker of Bottles


Now that you have taken the time to sit with yourself, your power, your feelings, your limits, you now have room to dream.

Hopefully you were able to glean hints & more clues about What Your Life is About, but if you're still struggling a bit (which is totally normal & ok), tap into your Future Ancestral Self.  What they really want is for you to lie back, remember how the Femmeiverse has you in the palm of some cosmic hand, & dare to write the unwritten.  

Don't hold back now.  You didn't just survive everything to ask for a mediocre life with things you kinda want, nope.  Ask for the one you couldn't fathom living without.  

​I trust you, & good luck.

XOXO 
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Deep Breaths

No more diving.  No more needing to hold your breath.  Feels like easy breaths, like relaxing your shoulders & jaw & smiling if you want to.

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Full Moon in Gemini Special!

11/25/2015

 
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Makeup Magic & Tarot: Make A Decision

11/23/2015

 

Feeling stuck or indecisive?  
​Follow your intuition & make a decision!

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All the blues & greens & turquoise & indigo colors are related to the heart, the throat or voice, & intuition.  As I was makeupping today, I thought about what trusting my intuition & making a decision based on it feels like. I think the hardest part is believing that my intuitive guidance will be affirmed once I start acting on it.  This process involves trusting my decision making skills as well as my intuition. 

‪When your heart & intuition are working together, their energies meet in your throat. The combination of these balances helps you communicate clearly & deliberately, & then you are able to move forward in your life with confidence. When there is discord or resistance in trusting one of these energy centers, moving forward can become difficult.  I like affirmations, so one I've come up with to support balance & harmony is:
 
I trust my decision making skills, & release internalized shit that's taught me not to. 
​I forgive myself for holding onto those beliefs.
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Weekly Tarot for 11/22-11/28: Strength

11/22/2015

 
Six months ago when I started reading tarot more professionally, I told myself that I would adapt to growth & change as they occur, that I don’t have to know what to do before I do, & that I can follow what feels good in my heart.  My new website, www.highmoonfemme.com, is the culmination of what I’ve learned about my practice these past six months, a place where I’m hoping to house all my offerings, both tarot & writing related.  & after hanging out with a femme friend of mine yesterday, I’ve decided to challenge my practice to include weekly tarot readings of sorts.  May I introduce you to Weekly Tarot for the week of 11/22-11/28.
 
The idea, & I may change it if something else feels more natural or intuitive, is that I’ll draw a card from the Major Arcana for a weekly theme, & then three additional cards who’s face you cannot see initially.  Through out the week if you’re needing some guidance, you can visit this post, pick a card with correlating stone, then scroll down to see the face you chose, & from there you can read what the individual card has to say about your question.  This process is intended to convey a sense of you choosing your own card amongst three.  

XO Lettie  

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Strength: 11/22-11/28

This card has come up a lot in the past few weeks, & I can only surmise this is because there is a Femmeiversal process happening of a kind of collective softening, especially with is coming us as I drew a theme card for this week for all you lovely hearts.  What does softness & this Strength card have to do with one another, you ask?  Let's go there.

It is easy to conflate being strong with the ability to push through the hard times, whether its because we have finals for classes, moving across the country with not enough anything, or the daily trying to surviving a shitty job / living situation / community / relationship.  & while those acts of survival & thrival require strength, undoubtedly, this card is asking you consider another kind of strength in your toolbox of skills.  

The Strength card wants to bring your awareness to the internal & emotional strength of coming back to your body & taking inventory of resources, capacity, desires, dreams, needs, & boundaries once you've survived things that required you to activate your super powers.  To become quiet & still & ask yourself the questions that bring real answers that take you where you want to go.  It's about vulnerability & not continuing to hurt ourselves in the ways others do.  It's about letting down those walls that protect  long enough to let some fresh air & starlight in.  Perhaps you can even lower the bridges long enough to invite a friend of the heart over for an afternoon.  

Don't you dare tell me that these endeavors do not require strength.  Don't you dare tempt the fates.  Instead, surrender, & meet yourself exactly where you are.  Take a breath, & then another.  You are here. 

SEEKING GUIDANCE?  PICK A CARD!

If you've come here seeking clarity, you've come to the right place.  All you need to do is think of your question or situation, take a few deep breaths, then choose the card that you feel drawn to immediately.  You can trust yourself.

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HERE'S THE CARD YOU CHOSE!


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Now scroll down to the card you chose to learn what it wants to share with you!

CARD: Accountability  ​
​STONE: Amazonite


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The Accountability card is also known as the Justice card.  This card holds a lot, & it is important to take note of your own definitions of Accountability & Justice.  Do you believe that the state can bring such things to you when you have been harmed?  Or do you realize that other avenues will be required to bring peace & a sense of safety back?  It is well documented that the state hardly, if ever, offers solutions for violence & harm that do not perpetuate violence & harm.  This is why it is important that you take time to figure what you need, what you want, & how to get those things.
I've personally sought comfort & peace of mind in Divine Justice, a Justice that I've come to understand on my own terms, in my own time, & though it is not as swift (or, admittedly, as severe) as I'd like, it brings me back into balance.  Once, when I wanted revenge to right a severe wrong, someone I trusted told me that that person would get theirs, that what goes around comes around, & to trust that the natural order of such things will take care of it.  This grave injustice would not go unnoticed by the gods & goddesses, but I cannot witness the righting.  "It'll be messy, & if you were too close, that shit would splash on you.  & baby, you've been through enough.  You don't need to deal with the repercussions of that.  I know you want to see, but you can't with out consequences."  This is not always the case, but it was for me, & off I set on a journey to find something else that could hold all these pieces.  Divine Justice. ​

CARD: Mentor of Bones  
​STONE: Jasper


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The Mentor of Bones is an omen of sorts, brought to your from your Ancestors to tell you that the time of fight-for-every-breath survival is done.  It will not be this hard again, not this last row.  It also honors the self that you've grown into, no longer afraid of the things you once were, no longer afraid of what you might unexpectedly meet in the corners of your mind & heart.  You've made peace with you.  The way this mountain lion's paws rest on the skull means that your Ancestors have always been with you, & they are with you now as you usher into a new era.  

The Mentor of Bones also wants to honor the wisdom you've cultivated from this chapter of your life called Fight For Every Breath.  You know what you are made up of.  You know how strong your fight is.  You know how the quiet can speak to you when you are completely alone.  You know how the stars guide you back when you've wandered too far, & most importantly, you know you can heal.  Your scars are so lovely, remember all that you carry.

CARD: Nine of Feathers  
​Stone: Tanzanite


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Nine of Feathers carries messages of being gentle with your survival self, of offering the balm of compassion to your badass survival self that got you through all the things!  It also warns you not to listen to the internalized shitty lies that tell you to make yourself small, invisible, insignificant.  This bird is plucking their own feathers for many different reasons because they are stuck in their natural cycle of turning to ash to come back as the Phoenix.  Yes, this card is reflecting back to you your fiery come back from the dead nature!  Instinctually, you know that you need to collapse into ash, but something has stalled your process, ask your wise beyond your years survival self what that is?  Then trust what you are told.

The number 9 is also significant because it is a number that signifies the end-end of a cycle.  Perhaps it is time to forgive yourself for what you did not know, for what you did & did not do, for believing the ways others have pathologized your behaviors & survival to heal the cycle.  The time is now.  You're gonna be ok.  Don't be afraid.  I trust you.

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Visit the One Who's Dying: A Short Play & Thoughts on Trusting Our Stories

11/16/2015

 
ACT 1
 
morning:  two femmes are sitting on the same on opposite ends of an L-shaped couch.  one is on a laptop, the other is putting on makeup.
 
l:  do you have amazon prime?  you did when you were in college, right?
L:  yes, i did.  & yes, i do.  & no, you cannot use it.
l:  i didn’t ask.
L:  but you’re gonna.
l:  who else am i gonna ask?  c’mon i need to know if this is the dress.
L:  if it is & you don’t get it?...
l:  it won’t matter.  i’ll still--
L: —don’t say it.
l:  i have to.  i want to. 
L:  not now.  not today.
l:  it’ll be ok.  you’ll be ok!
L:  just not today.
l:  fine. not today.
 

ACT 2
 
mid day:  L is putting on makeup in their room, next to a window for natural light.  their back is to the door, & to l when they walk in.
 
l:  guess what?  my dress came!
L:  i don’t care.
l:  wanna see? 
L:  i don’t care.
l:  it’s super cute!
L:  i don’t care.
l:  can i show you?
L:  i’ll see it anyways.  isn’t it, like, bad luck to see you in it before­­--
l: —i’m not getting married.  i’m--
L: — don’t.  say it.
l:  you’re gonna know everything anyways.  you’ll understand then.  hopefully.
L:  hopefully?  hopefully?  that’s all you’ve got for me?  hopefully.  i wait my whole life for me to make sense—i pray, i cry, i surrender, i write, i cast spells & conjure & tarot, & finally i leave that fucking city, i get sick, really sick, & when i start coming back to life, i find you.  My Guardian, The One Who Knows--
l: —i know.
L:  no you don’t!
l:  but i do!  i loved you as you searched & faltered & hovered near death for years.  i loved you as you healed & conjured & opened that whale-belly-to-the-bottom-of-the-ocean heart of yours.  & i loved you the whole time, hoping you would find me, but knowing when you did, it wouldn’t last.  it can’t.  i have to die so you can do all the things we were meant to do.
L:  what if i don’t want to do “all the things we were meant to do”?  it hurts!  sure, iget it, there’s been a futility to you love, but you’ve hadtime.  i don’t get time.  it’s been so nice, being able to talk with someone, another body, having another person love me, hug me, another voice, not just my voice that says, “yeah, that’s fucked up!”  & what is it i’m supposed to do?  healing feels like a lot of fucked up shit happening & just witnessing, not stopping any of it!  i don’t want this, these feelings i don’t know what to fucking do with!  fuck you.  fuck you for loving me, & fuck you for leaving me, just like everyone always does.  get out of my room.
 

ACT 3
 
night:  l is in their room, sitting, laying tarot cards out on their bed.  candles are burning.
 
L knocks on l’s door.
 
l:  go away, please.
 
L knocks again, more forcefully.

l:  fine.
L:  i can’t stop thinking of you.
l:  let it go.
L:  but i can’t.  there has to be another way.
l:  there’s not.  this is what i’m supposed to do.  i’m not scared.  i’ll miss you, but i’m not scared.
L:  how?  tell me how you’re not scared.  help me through this last thing before you…before you die.
l:  you said it.  you let it be true. 
 
they both laugh & cry at the same time.
 
L:  what helps you smile when you know you’re leaving me?
l:  i can’t see or know very far, like, they don’t let me, but your heart does.  that beautiful heart you call a whale heart.  if you ever need me, or need instructions, dive, baby.  dive as far as you dare, then dive til you bump against the ocean bottom, & i will be there.  they won’t let me say much more because i’m already holding so much, but i can tell you it’s better than what you’ve seen or imagined.  just keep breathing, keep loving, even when nothing makes sense.  & always start with you.
L:  fuck, i knew that.
 
they both laugh.
 
l:  but you needed to hear it one last time.  or, rather, i needed to tell you one last time.
L:  so tell me, how can i help you finish getting ready?
l:  wanna see my new dress?
L:  yes!  & i totally know you used my account!
l:  it’ll help you justify keeping it!
L:  lemme me see it!  i bet it looks cuter in person!
 
l leaves to put on the dress & comes back wearing it.
 
l:  i love the drama of black lace, & it was half off!
L:  shoes?
l:  bare feet.
L:  pedicure?
l:  fuck yes.
L:  color:
l:  hot pink.
L:  perfect!  i think i’ve got a bottle in my bag!  can i paint your toes?
l:  yes!  that’s exactly what i need.
 
L rummages around in their bag, but it’s so full of stuff they can’t find it immediately.
 
L:  i have so much shit in here, hold on a sec…
 
L dumps everything out onto a table with their back turned to l.
 
l:  you’re so sweet.  i love you.
L:  i love you, too. 
 
L turns around with the polish in hand & realizes l is gone.  A breeze moves through the room, & the candles & lights go out at the same time.

trusting this story to be enough was a process.  i know that i am a only a vessel, & that most often my only job is to tell the story as it comes through, but it is still so hard to trust it.  i want to make sure every story that comes through me is not only the best, but perfect.  & this is where i can become stuck.

at the tender age of 32, i am still trying to undue the writing fuckery i've survived in a variety of writing environments, laying to rest all the ways i've been misunderstood & all the unhelpful but supposed to be helpful comments from people who will never know me.  i do this by telling myself that these stories want & need to be told, that they chose me as their conduit because i have the specific skill set required for such a task.  & as much as i want my stories to always be held, always be loved, always be cherished, i have no actual control over any of this.  but, what i can do, & what i must do, is trust that these stories are enough, that some canonical version of perfection is not required, & that we, my stories & i, get to take up space in this world.

it is with this understanding that grants me peace in saying that i will not tell you what this story is supposed to be about (at least for now), because i want it to live inside of you in the ways it calls to you.  your relationship to this story is between you & this story, & for me to come in & pretend like i can know anything about that is false.
what i will tell you is that this story is about whatever it is to be for you, that your connection to it is real.  if it has found you, you were both calling for each other, & the femmeiverse loves us all.  

my deepest hope is this story will continue to loved & cherished & bring life, long after i've sent it into the world.   

Originally published at www.lettielaughter.com on November 6, 2015.
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    Photo by Wit López, 2016.


    ​Dacia Holliday

    is a chronically ill queer indigenous femme, community healer, poet, playwright, & performer extraordinaire.  They live, love, femmeifest, & write in the desert.

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