​Deer Tender Heart,
Today is my birthday.  I will officially be 35-years-old tonight at 9:54pm tonight.  Right now I'm typing at the kitchen table while people I love are sleeping under the same roof.  I woke up before 7am even though I went to bed way late because I just have this desire (which totes sometimes feels like anxiety tbh) to move around in the quiet tender air of alone.  I like it.  It can hold me, nourish me with possibility, whisper hopeful to-do lists.  My thought are only interrupted with other thoughts of my own.  This is such a treat.

I was trying to decide what to do today, & I played with all kinds of plans, but when I wipe everything away but myself, what I want becomes clear.  I wanna go to the beach alone, maybe get my free breakfast at Denny's along the way, & pray & cry & dream with the ocean.  By myself.  The last time I did this was five years ago, but it wasn't on my birthday.  I loved it.  I love going to visit the ocean by myself.  I was worried that I would talk myself out of it because I gotta finish working & writing & posting one card readings so I can rest at ease, but the more that I type this out, the more I really really want to.

I also wanna ask you for something.  For my birthday can you give me some feedback?  Share with me what Tarot for the People does for you?  How you connect with it?  Do you like it?  Are there things you would change?  What are some things you'd like me to write more about?  I almost always feel like I am sending out these words into the internet void, I just wanna hear some things echoed back.  Please help take care of me.  I would really appreciate that a lot.

Love,
​Dacia

Deer Moonbabe,
I'm currently traveling solo, writing to your from my friend's couch, thinking a lot about what's happened in the past two years.  The last time I was in Oakland in July, which is exactly where I am right now, in Oakland in July, was two years ago.  I was broken open & deeply questioning whether or not I was even supposed to be reading tarot, or doing any kind of healing work, because of a heartbreaking series of events that transpired in the days leading up to my birthday.  I was on an unplanned extended Summer vacay that unfolded in surprising & beautiful ways, & I can't help but feel those same pangs of What do I do next?  I know enough to keep writing, keep reading, keep grieving & creating.  I know that following the next thing next thing will yield results I can't even imagine right now.  

I'm supposed to be here with my girlfriend & my kid, but the Femmeiverse had other plans for us.  Instead of queer family roadtripping to Oakland & visiting fam in LA, we went in the direction of shipping my kid off to the grandparent's a week earlier than planned, & putting me on a plane to fly solo to puppy-sit for friends, which would leave Suze at home with Lola, puppy extraordinaire.  It's what made the most "sense" considering money things, but it sucks when plans don't work out the way I thought they were gonna.  I'm still recovering from PTSD brain haze, & even though I'm feeling much more like myself, I can definitely tell that I'm taking longer to do work things, & my performance is not up to my usual standard.  It's ok, though.  I'm dealing with a lot, & I'm open to practicing compassion towards myself.

This week's edition of Tarot for the People is late because all last week I was prepping for this trip (instead of sitting down & pulling cards & writing), working to make money for bills etc., & going to the dentist two days in a row cuz I wanted to be sure there wasn't an infection.  Then there was the packing & laundry & mayhem that swirls about when leaving town.  For the next few weeks I'm puppy-sitting in Oakland, lining up tarot readings, visiting friends, sleeping, & trying to follow the Femmeiverse's lead (just like the Gilmore girls theme song).  I have found that the Femmeiverse knows me so much better than I do, & even when  I feel outta my element.

It's my birthday on Sunday.  I finally have a home.  I finally have someone who loves me in ways I love myself.  My kid is healing.  I have boundaries with my family of origin.  I'm in new therapy.  I'm close to the ocean & can visit for the time being.  I'm open & hopeful.  I'm learning how useful & grounding routines are.  I try to moisturize my skin & drink water & take my vitamins.  I try to pray or at least tell the Femmeiverse thanks & love all of my Dacias.  I hope the love & care I put into these weekly readings fill you up, tuck you in, feed your heart & spirit, & inspire new thoughts.  Thank you for receiving what I'm sharing.

Love,
​Dacia 

It’s time to expand your emotional horizons, & you’re gonna do this by visiting those sacred forests of the unknown within your own heart, mind, & spirit.  Nine is the number of completion, which tells me that you’ve been working towards this goal of transforming your relationship to your forest, whether you were aware of it or not.  THE HERMIT indicates that there are probs themes of aloneness happening in your life right now, so don’t be worried if folks seem scarce, it’s actually supporting you by removing any potential distractions.  You will emerge from this cycle with a stronger connection to Spirit & your ancestors, with a keen sense of truth & when someone’s trying to bullshit you, & the urge to burn it all down because you were afraid of what you’d find will give way to compassion.  

ARTIST of BONES is all what I call the Ancestral Selfie card, & what I mean by that is that it's your job is to capture the essence of who you are, tap into it & adorn it, & share it with the world!  Your ancestors have always known this part of you, & fully love you just as you are.  Don’t gotta change or edit yourself in any way.  My ancestors embrace my slutty, queer, brown, fat, babygirl crop top wearing self, love me when I’m trying out new lipsticks that maybe don’t match, celebrate me when I find new ways to break open with orgasms, & can’t wait to feed me all the sweet & soft things I crave in this world.  & however you identify & adorn & show up in this world, your ancestors love you, too.  Whatever precious version of yourself you’ve got, let shine shine shine!

Dacia has been reading tarot for over 10 years & has developed a gentle approach that allows even the most challenging inquiries to come through with an ease & grace.  To experience the healing, clarity, & comfort you deserve, book a reading today!  & she's gonna be in Huichin / Oakland until mid July, so if you're also hanging out on Ohlone Land / in the Bay, book your in-person readings before she's off back to the desert!

Deer Magic Heart,
This offering is three days late, I've got salt from fresh tears drying up on my neck, & I'm still plugging along, knowing & hoping that as long as I'm diligent, kind, & open, shit will continue working out.  

I've strayed from attending my 12-step meetings this week, but I did complete phase one on my DBT group therapy.  I'm crying & sleeping & eating.  I figured out that I spent most of last week in a PTSD haze where basically my brain didn't work the way I'm used to.  It's like I'm a little calculator that adds random numbers into the equations I'm being programmed with & I don't even know it.  It's like if I push buttons for 1+1, & I'm assuming whatever number comes out with be correct, & that it'll be 2...but then it doesn't, & I don't even know it!  I'm getting all different kinds of answers, anything from a subtle 1.8 to a not so subtle 20.  It took me a whole fucking week to figure this out, that something wasn't right with me.  & I only came to this conclusion after days of weird shit & not so random discrepancies   Sometimes being crazy really sucks & feels scary.

​Keeping myself grounded is a full-time endeavor, especially when I'm coming back from an intense PTSD haze.  I'm working hard to remember all the things I can be grateful for when I feel like shit, not to shame myself into feeling better or anything like that, but to highlight how powerful my love is.  I've loved myself back to life again & again.  I've loved myself so much that I've created a life with people who love me, with clients who I can be honest with & who feel safe being honest with me, a life where my rent gets paid & home is a real fucking place where I'm really fucking safe.  My willingness to breathe through heart crushing grief has paved the way for me to continue believing I still deserve love & care & consideration, no matter what happens to me.  

These are the powers that I am drawing upon now as I continually face the facts about what is happening with my kiddo.  I am so tender, heart broken, confused & overwhelmed, but I am not alone, & I trust that we will learn from this, too.

I'm too tired to proof read everything over & over like I usually do, so my apologies if any of this is unclear or confusing.  Writing a weekly tarot offering has always been a place where I document the trials & blessings in my life, & I intend to continue this tradition.  This is me, this is my heart, my blood, my pieces.  Thank you for witnessing.  May the Femmeiverse continue blessing us all with love, abundance, hope, & rest.

Love,
Dacia

P.S.
I'm gonna be in the Bay next week, & I'm booking in-person readings for July 5th-17th.  Get yours before they fill up!  Let's eat snacks, talk, & connect with your guides & ancestors to get your some healing, clarity, & confirmation about anything & everything!

Guess who’s here for another New Moon?  THE CODE!  I guess the Femmeiverse really wants you to ground & center in yourself again, & what better time than the New Moon?  I totes had a feeling that THE CODE might show up again, too!  This Gemini New Moon is a good time to nurture your creativity & communicate your heart’s desires.  Start writing; try a DIY project; learn a new recipe; trust your heart when it tells you to reach out to that friend you haven’t communicated with for a while, or play a favorite song on repeat while you travel back in time to reflect on how far you’ve come.  I also recommend revisiting any intentions you sent out into the Femmeiverse during last month’s Taurus New Moon so you can assess what’s come to fruition, what still needs support, & what you’ve changed your mind about.  Your heart is getting stronger & braver every day, & you’ll probably find that it wants to open quicker than what you think you’re ready for.  Trust it anyways.  Your heart always wants the best for you.  

This week you can expect to easily slip out of paradigms that have been blocking your clarity about an old situation.  It’ll seem so obvious once you recognize what it is.  Don’t utter any unkind words towards yourself about this.  Bask in the marvelous simplicity of your new awareness, grateful to shed this very old skin.  You're preparing to make a big move, which can be moving to a new residence, making a career move, or shifting focus in your emotional / psychological / spiritual life.  Although this move is not sudden, it is still challenging, mostly because you are acting on faith.  This card is about the ways your heart is connecting to Spirit & how you are changing as a result.  You have been gaining insight & clarity that is inspiring this move, & the conditions are lining up for you to trust that this is exactly what you’re supposed to do!

​Your guides & ancestors want you to understand that you're being held securely in their loving palms.  The image for the RECEPTION card reflects that you're the sweet body holding the power of creation in your body & spirit, & they want to support you in bring your ideas & energy out into the world.  You are incubating an idea, a creative project, a purpose.  You know it, I know it, & so does the Femmeiverse.  You are here to create something beautiful, deer one, something no one else in creation can ever replicate because it will be filtered through every feeling you’ve ever felt, every story you ever witnessed, every skill you’ve ever learned, & every experience you survived, thrived, fought, & loved your way through.  In all of time, there is only one you.  You are responsible for that living, breathing thing inside of you.  The RECEPTION card says that there is absolutely a place in this world for you & your creation.  All that’s left is for you to relax, believe what I am telling you, & gently open yourself up so you can share those gems you’ve been incubating.  By no means does any part of this process have to be perfect, you just gotta start.  

​Fighting for your life doesn’t have to involve fists or words that draw blood.  Fighting for your life can be releasing what is in your heart, letting it fly, trusting that it can.  APPRENTICE of FEATHERS tells me you’ve been sitting with your heart truths for a little while now & urges you to find a way to express it.  Yes, there are people you hold deer that will not be able to accept what you’re sharing, & yes, they might even leave because they are so uncomfortable--do it anyways!  Fuck 'em.  Don’t let their fear clip your wings.  

This week the Femmeiverse is bringing you the STAR.  She wants you to understand how much possibility resides in every iota of your being--YOU are the impossible made possible!  You are a miracle, you are a dream come true, you are loved every single day, every single moment, through every single breath!  Your guides & ancestors are pouring so much energy into you all the time, filling that heart of yours, pouring protective energy all over you so that you’re ok.  Your job is to surrender, trust, & believe you deserve this expression of unconditional love from the Femmeriverse & the Spirit realm cuz you're being prepped for some miraculous, outta this world, OMG shit.  Now is the time to make BIG PLANS & EVEN BIGGER WISHES!  There’s no limit, deer one, take advantage of this moment.  Let this truth knock the breath outta you, then let it fill your lungs with sweetness.   

​Don’t be afraid of making those BIG STAR CARD PLANS!  The Femmeiverse totally supports you--crunch the numbers, make a budget, make a plan, ask for help closing any gaps you can see right now, & then leave it be.  SIX of FEATHERS is about making your own wings to achieve a goal that you’ve never attempted before, to go somewhere & do a thing because you’re tired of telling yourself I can’t.  Your wings will take time, & throughout this process you will wrestle with faith & doubt, asking yourself: Do I have what it takes to make this happen?  The resources?  The perseverance?  The nerve to ask for what I want?  In these moments, remember the promise of the STAR card, & how much love & care you’ve exuded into your families, your communities, & the Femmeiverse, & that all that good shit will absolutely come back to you.  That’s reciprocity.  Don’t fuck with the balance by refusing to receive.  SIX of FEATHERS says that the people that love you, near & far, will totes come & support you in any way possible.  

​TEN of FEATHERS is showing up in the realm of AIR this week.  This is where the Femmeiverse talks to you through signs, songs, & inspired thought.   This card shows us how Icarus fell from the sky when his wax wings melted cuz he was too close to the Sun, & I can't help but wonder if he had a feeling that those wings weren't gonna do the job?  Did he ignore something crucial for the sake of haste or convenience?  Be careful right now, don’t make the same mistake.  It’s obvi by the TEN of FEATHERS showing up that you did fuck up somewhere along this path you're on, & that you chose to travel back in time (to this moment) to do this shit over.  Make sure you take this opportunity to consider options that might not currently be in the picture, & don't be afraid to be honest enough with yourself that your course & destination change.

FIVE of FEATHERS is here as a wakeup call.  Stop pretending like you don’t know what you want, & don’t lie about it either.  This card represents a person who wants to be free to fly where they want when they want, & they’re so desperate to appear as if they’ve got it figured out that they’re pulling feathers off a dead bird & sewing them into their own skin.  Don’t settle for the shell of the life you want, sweet one.  Choose the living, breathing, bleeding version.   Your guides & ancestors can help you grow wings for the life you want if you choose messy & alive, but first you gotta humble yourself enough to admit you don’t know what you’re doing, & secondly, refuse to take any shortcuts when it comes to quality.  If you need to start over, start over.  You’ve got time. 

Grieve some more.  I realize you might be tired of it, but if you stop now you’ll only create more work for yourself later on.  Old pain you thought you were “done” with has been haunting you because it's ready for a final purge that makes healing on a deeper level possible.  Don’t worry that you seem to be here again, you didn’t do anything wrong.  You are exactly where you need to be.  Once you stop fighting the story sitting inside of you & let it out, you will feel much better.  Talk to your grief.  Make it your friend.  The more you honor it, the quicker it’ll move through & out.  Witness your own pain to embrace the power that comes when you no longer turn away.  This process will reveal answers you’ve been seeking.  

Boundaries are a way to ask for love & care from others, & a way to show others you love & respect them.  Boundaries are not gonna hurt anyone, & they’ll reveal the people who are in your life to exploit & coast on your efforts rather than cultivate their own shit.  BUT loved ones who want you to live your best life are gonna be so excited to show your boundaries some love!  It’s important for you to know how you’re using your energy right now cuz you need to keep your most precious & powerful magic for yourself to transform from a caterpillar into a butterfly.   All this change has the potential to feel destabilizing, & that’s why the Femmeiverse is giving this advance notice.  Don’t ignore her signs!

Grief changes you into someone you didn’t know you could be.  It transforms your relationship to your body, your community, your family, & your soul work (which can also be your day job, but not always).  When you encounter the hurt, break it open / cry it open / sing it open / pray it open / trust-some-kind-of-process it open.  Your grief will give way to joy, all you gotta do is trust the way it rearranges your life.  Joy isn’t as elusive as you might believe, it’s made up of ingredients like peace of mind, respect for yourself & others, & trusting what you feel.  Don’t be afraid when you receive clarity about how to prioritize your health & happiness in your relationships, this is the overhaul they've needed.  Kiss your grief  with  gratitude & honor the power it has to shape & refine you.

You’ve been avoiding yourself, & now it’s time to sit still & come clean.   Nobody is trying to tie you down, the Femmeiverse is just trying to get your attention so she can give you what you've been asking for!  Face the hurts you've experienced in the realm of love. Spend time with your own healing power without giving it away. Resist the urge to lash out at anything / anyone that approaches you, even if your fight or flight response gets triggered.  Witness the too vulnerable, fucked up, & unloveable within yourself so that it can stop working overtime to get your attention.  Be patient with yourself, & when it feels like too much, breathe, cry, go outside, eat something, share what’s coming up for you with someone you trust.  Whatever you do, be present.  These fragments of memory, of you & your life, will help you understand what has created you.  Take this opportunity to reconcile your beginnings & make yourself whole again.

Your heart has survive all kinds of fucked up shit, & here you are, open & soft as can be.  A beautiful fucking miracle.  You’re doing such amazing work with yourself, & now it’s time to allow others to help you heal the wounds you can't suture yourself.  This requires you to share all the shit that hurts & bubbles up inside of you.  Tell them how you survived by protecting those tender to the touch spots, & then together you gotta scrape those sites clean because they're wounds that have developed funk & gunk.  It’s gonna hurt (again), & it might even confuse you for a moment, causing you to think this person is hurting you in the same way your wounds were created, but that’s not the case, deer one.  I promise. You are loved & you are safe. This is your  opportunity to finally close up this chapter of your life!  Let the fight go, it's time to rest. The Femmeiverse sent this brave heart your way to help you heal, trust them.

Last week the CODE / Taurus New Moon combo was about pushing through to create a new life that centers your whole self, & this week you’re gonna learn what your whole self is made up of with the APPRENTICE of BONES.  This card & the Femmeiverse are urging you to take inventory of your bones.  Revisit your conscious & subconscious belief systems & examine each of these one by one so you can mend any that are broken, grow those that are missing, & reset others that weren’t taken care of when a trauma initially occurred.  If left unaddressed, these easily become barriers to your healing.  You’re so brave to do this, tender heart. Yes it sucks, but you’ll understand & have so much more compassion for yourself once you’re finished.  It hurts like hell to find out you’ve been missing essential pieces of yourself for so long & it’ll hurt, too, when you have to re break your own bones so that they can finally heal.  You are not alone in this, though, k?  The skull on the upper right corner of the card symbolizes that your guides & ancestors are always with you, ready to help when you ask.  They can help you find the references, information, & support you need to believe in your own power to heal yourself.  We all have this power, & you’ll find it in this deep digging.

TEN of BOTTLES is a sign to behold your chosen community of loved ones, the people, places, creatures, & plants that nourish & claim you.  You will need to drop your anchor for a little while, so seek out a safe place to do so with deep, still waters that reflect back to you how beautiful & necessary your vulnerability is.  Surround yourself with precious hearts to encourage you as you excavate bones that hold magic in their marrow, moonlit memories of how easy you are to love.  Remembering yourself  will feel like heartbreak, & it is, & you’re gonna sob & maybe even feel like dying.  You might also have flashes of the times fucked up shit has happened & you internalized ridiculous messages that broke your spirit.  When you encounter these, know that you have already survived the things that haunt you, & you must now witness them one last time, re break those busted bones, & finally set them correctly.  

​TWO of KEYS fulfills the promise that you will know your worth, your power, your value.  It’s totally ok to ask for reassurance from the ones you trust, but know that there will be times when you have to make a choice based solely on your own experiences & visions.  One of my favorite ways to do this is by connecting with & asking my future ancestral self what I should do in any given situation where I need guidance.  You are the secret ingredient for making shit work in your life.  You are totally enough.  As you go through your bone inventory this week, remove any & all bones that are not yours.  It doesn’t matter how essential they’ve been for you, they are not yours, they are not completely compatible with your life, & they will not be able to take you into the future you want. 

​Last week we met just as you were pulling yourself through the portals of death & rebirth, & this week ACCOUNTABILITY wants to breathe life into your new cycle.  Past experiences that were painful & had no resolution, or where you felt like your power was compromised, lost, stolen, & / or manipulated will be dragged into the light.  These revelations are here to show you how you’re connecting to your power, & to understand this, you need to witness again where & when you began to disconnect.  ACCOUNTABILITY tells the story of how you tried to right a wrong, how you fought to figure out a solution, employing whomever & whatever you could to try & document your injustice.  But in the end it didn’t matter, & you ended up paying a pound of flesh on your own.  This week marks the return of that payment, of hope, of faith in divine timing knowing exactly what you need exactly when you need it.  However long you’ve been waiting to put yourself back together, there will be discomfort, it will require patience, & once things are in motion (which they are), you can’t stop it.  You are known & loved by the Femmeiverse, & she would never cause harm.  Cry.  Scream.  Roar.  This is your power coming back to life in places you thought would remain forever barren.

The present-day you is the future ancestor of you yesterday, you as a teenager, you as a young child, you as a baby.  & present-day you has a future ancestral self that resides in tomorrow, in next week, next year, in a decade from now.  All of these parts of you exist at the same time, & you can access them all.  When you feel stuck or scared, you can ask your future ancestral self, “What do I need to know?  What do I need to understand?  What should I do next?” & you will get an answer.  Your future ancestral self is connected to healing your recipes from last week, & when you opened up a healing portal, you availed yourself to a multitude of options.  The ACE of KEYS is evidence of that portal & of your infinite possibilities.  There is a map coming your way.  It is incomplete, but that doesn’t mean it’s useless.  Your healing recipes are taking you to a place you haven’t been in a long time, but it is a place your ancestral self remembers.  It is a place your bones remember.  This study of self throughout time is essential for understanding your spiritual, emotional, & physiological anatomy.  Take your time.  There is no need to rush this process.  As you travel back in time & recognize the ways your future ancestral self is what protected you, guided you, & brought people into your life that could care for you, you will trust the treasure trove that is your heart, your guts, your love. 

​Every time you choose to burn everything to the ground & eat the ash, it serves a purpose.  Every lick of flame & tongue is resurrection. The sacred wheel of death & rebirth demands your devotion to self-expansion, to be so bloated with knowledge & experience that your spirit finally surrenders.  Death can be getting pushed out of community during your Saturn return, or witnessing the familiar traits of trauma play out in your child’s life, or sobbing your heart out after a delicious orgasm. Rebirth can be learning how to take care of yourself when before you might’ve abandoned your own heart.  It can be naming all the secrets that haunt your family so your child has a map to navigate the rough terrain of your lineage. & it can be the moment you finally feel safe & at home in your body. Each of those deaths also brought life. No matter where you’re at in this cycle, remember to break open. How else is your indomitable spirit gonna find a way through?​

​It’s time to heal a recipe you were given. Perhaps you received Love that wasn’t made with sweetness, or you were given ingredients infested with doubt & denial. Adjustments can always be made to what you inherited in order to satisfy a craving.  The missing component can be an outing with friends who sprinkle you with I believe in you, or maybe it’s wearing soft things for days on end, drinking gallons of motherwort tea, & processing shit while watching episodes of Buffy.  Cook up some dishes your inner child would’ve loved, then travel back in time & feed yourself. While you’re at it, harness the power of the THREE OF KEYS & open a portal that allows this healing to flow through the roots of your lineage.  From this point forward you can always revisit these new recipes instead of the ones received. Thank your ancestors for giving what they could, & share it with them.​